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2013

I’ve been terrible about blogging lately, and to be honest, I’ve hit another block of dissatisfaction when it comes to this and the other blogs I keep in my name.  I’m wondering if this is too much of a diversion from keeping an “official” web presence under my real name, but I realize doing that has implications on my professional image.  I like having the potential for wider audience than a friends-only Livejournal post, but don’t feel as free to write about more negative emotional states or sexuality here than I would there.  This space is supposed to keep me writing, but I find the block is coming at me again when I’m here.

I was glad to see 2012 off: there were a few highlights, and an important life change, but I also had another bout of illness (whooping cough in August/September), my parents’ dog died in Novemberand the whole spell of unemployment I went through until I did get work took its toll on me.  It really did not help that I was living at home in an atmosphere that seemed to enable pessimism and reclusiveness, and the combination of it all brought me the biggest crisis in self-confidence I suffered in about 7 years.  I’m glad to be in my own space again, and working at a steady job for now (even if it is a term position that may not last too much longer): I feel a bit more in control of my life and my destiny, and that helps.

But what of the new year? Where do I want to be at years’ end?  Grand pronouncements that a year is going to be better than the last tend to blow up in the face of the person that make them, as do promises of lofty goals.  I tried doing 30 before 30 last year.  Didn’t exactly get everything done, but it was worth a try.  I thought I would try to get another list of goals posted sometime by the end of the week, which I’m still trying to winnow down.

I think it’s time to think about what I really want out of life again, though.  I’m so used to practicality and trying to be satisfied with the low-hanging fruit, and I really need a little more inspiration this time around.  If you have a suggestion for something to get out of this year, I would really love to hear it.

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The extension: a wash

Well, that didn’t go as well as I hoped.

I gave myself three extra months to complete all the incomplete items on my 30 Before 30 list.  Not really much progress since that point; maybe going to some place in NB I haven’t been (although that’s a stretch), but that’s it.  I think what it shows me is either that my bad habits have a tighter grip on me than I realize, or I really don’t want to improve myself and just want to give the impression that I do.

30 Before 30: Update five

This is my last progress report on my 30 Before 30 list: my deadline is next Monday, the 2nd.

Accomplished:

  • I have my learner’s permit.  So far I’ve been practicing going forward, backing up, turning and signaling in a church parking lot that’s a bit out of town.
  • I’ve decided that my old address (the one with my full name on it) is going to be where my portfolio rests when it is done.
  • Went up to Bathurst with Kyle and shot his entry for my Simple Portraits series.
  • Booked my trip out of town for the week before my 30th birthday (I leave tomorrow).
  • Applied for more jobs.
  • Did one free write for one hour.
Needs work
  •  I’m thinking of seeing a live music performance while I’m in Halifax.
  • I still need to finish my letters.  I’m going to work on them this week (I say that all the time).
  • I’m trying to think of a timeline to accomplish all the other goals I won’t be able to meet in the next week.  I decided to incorporate this into my 35 before 35.

So I’ll be in Halifax from tomorrow until Sunday, then up to Moncton for a night.  If anyone wants to meet up or get a bite/drink or have me take a picture of you, let me know.  Offer only open to people that I have an idea who they are (sorry, murderers).

30 Before 30 List: Update three

Once again, time for my bi-weekly 30 Before 30 update:

Progress:

  • I’ve gone ahead and studied the New Brunswick driver’s manual, but I haven’t actually booked a sitting with the driver examiner to take the test for my learner’s permit.
  • Still no fast food this month.  I’m quite proud of this, actually.  Once the month is done, I may crave something but I’m going to keep track of how often I get fast food and try to keep it at a minimum.
  • I started applying for jobs again.
  • Still avoiding new purchases of DVDs, books and CDs, and still going through my unwatched pile.
  • I’ve started going through photos and watermarking them for my portfolio.

To work on:

  • I didn’t get around to taking any new portraits for my Simple Portraits series, but I will get something done in the next two weeks.
  • This is going to be the time I plan my week of meals.   I actually cooked burgers from scratch on Wednesday and did a pretty good job at it, but I’m going to look for some different recipes to try.  One thing I’m thinking of trying is lasagna.
  • As I’ve posted, I’m doing a self-imposed exile from the internet starting later tonight, and will not use a computer until Monday morning.  This actually would be a good time to work on some of my other goals.
  • Book an appointment with the driver examiner.
  • Complete my passport application.

I’m still thinking about what I’m going to do with my 35 before 35.  Most of what I want to accomplish is travel-related: I’m looking for suggestions for goals for that list.

Have a good weekend!

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