Five minute free write
I know I missed t yeaterday, I feel sometimes when I’m here muy life goes into these feedback loops that I can’t seem to break out of, I just relive the same piece of stasis that’s been going on for four days now. Whydo I let myself do this? Do I just need to get out of this house sometimes? I feel like I can’t even connect with myself here. This is bad. This is a shame, because I could feel myself growing and getting on with things out in Halifax, but here, I just feel so lazy and passive. I want to be able to go ahead, tackle different projectsd, and not wait. I don’t like jobs that are too passive in nature, I guess. I want my brain to be used, I want to be able to make decisions and feel more confident in the decisions that I do make, but I don’t really know where that part of me is when I’m here. Maybe I need to get some fresh air and a pot of coffee. CI feel boxed in and the jumps I make from one idea to another are not coming. This is seriously making me angrruy. Maybe it would help if I cleaned my room. I feel lik e making a donation to something or other if I had a little more money to spasre. For now, a big bowl of somethingorother ceral will suffice. Who reads these things anyway? I know of a few that do. Is my confidence buckling or is it just a bad mood. I can never tell. Shoot. it.