Whoa, so much for getting into the habit of posting everyday with that #365poems exercise. I still see the value of doing it, but when you go two weeks without a post because of the backlog of poems needed to catch up, and not wanting to come up with a separate post until I did, that just spells trouble.
I’ve been thinking a lot about the future of my blogging. These days, I can’t really say it’s been the biggest priority for me anymore. I’ve been maintaining blogs for over 12 years now; an ever-growing chunk of my life has been documented across multiple platforms and usernames. I’ve been reading blogs for a while longer. I’ve connected with a number of awesome people through blogging: writing is how I communicate best and feel I can reveal my true self that gets lost in the awkwardness of face-to-face interactions. I haven’t really bothered reading blogs in a little while, though, or keeping up with my RSS readers. Maybe this is due to the pervasiveness and ease of social media, or maybe this is just annoyance at scripts not responding in my browser.
I have three blogs on WordPress right now. One is an “official site” under my full name that hasn’t been updated in a month. Another is a sporadically updated “pop culture” blog that’s mostly SNL. And then there’s this one, which has been sort of a clearinghouse of whatever came to mind. I also maintain a few Tumblrs but those aren’t so much about the words. With all these blogs, no wonder my focus is so divided.
I think my blogging is also dividing my focus from getting my writing to a point where I want it to be. To be honest, I’m not entirely sure I should be posting as much of my work online before I get a chance to really fine-tune it. I also feel like writing for the public at large has become a crutch for me, and an excuse to no longer write personal correspondence aside from cursory, business-like missives. It’s not that I don’t like blogging; it’s just that I want to be more confident in the direction my writing takes.
I’m going to take a break from blogging online for the next little while. I also think it’s time to close Not In The Past.
I feel like I’ve hit a wall with my writing online, and painted myself into a corner. I’m debating whether to delete everything here, make everything private, or allow it to gather dust and spam comments.
I’ll be posting similar messages on the other blogs; I don’t think I’ll delete the other two, especially if one is supposed to be my main footprint online and the other is my most popular site, but I think a break is due. I haven’t decided what I’ll do once I decide I’m ready to rejoin the blogosphere; I may try to get the blog rolling on my “professional page” or just open a site that I don’t put my name on or publicize (not even in comments).
I’m not disappearing from the internet completely, though. I’ll still be on social media (Facebook, Twitter, etc. If you don’t know my username, send me a message), and you can still e-mail me directly. I just have a bit of blog fatigue at the moment.
Until we meet again,